reading emotions readings did trigger some self-reflection.
In pursuit of prescribed expectations from others, the individual tends to 'lose himself' during the process of deep acting.
This made me pondered on how I have portrayed myself to the people around me. Unfortunately, I must have portrayed a Wing Hang that is naughty, rebellious, kotor, easy to bully and untrustworthy. And hence the more others try to induce such traits in me, the more I feel and think the same way.
Still remembering a certain day last wk, I put in all my attention to fold the authentic origami for someone in appreciation of the 90cts that she lent me. but she straightaway thought that I just wanted to be mischievous again. It was the first time someone actually reacted this way and I was surprised yet disheartened. This simply shows how emotional experiences change other's perception about an individual. Maybe I was too overboard the other day, surface acting before I could pick up that piece of paper and throw it away. I was swaying inside. :(
I guess I will have to bear my own consequences for such emotional dissonance.
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